Willing to Fail for the Sake of the Kingdom

Last year I had a huge dream I wanted to bring to fruition but I didn’t have the first clue about how to make it happen. I begged God to show me how to make it happen, or at the very least, to hit me over the head with a blinking light and a list of steps to take to make this dream a reality, but I was only met with was silence. The silence became a breeding ground for a tangled mess of frustration and impatience. It was a pretty ugly time, guys.  

One morning in prayer, I finally stilled my antsy heart long enough to gain understanding about the situation. I wasn’t able to move forward for several reasons, but one of those reasons was feeling like I had to bring this dream to fruition perfectly without making a single mistake along the way. That day, I felt like God told me something that made the perfectionist inside of me’s eyes grow wide:

Be willing to fail for the sake of the kingdom.

Gross! I argued. I don’t want to be willing to fail! I don’t want to publicly make mistakes!

And there was the problem, my friends. I was more focused on me, myself, and I, and also how people would perceive my mistakes instead of building up the Kingdom of God. I was more focused on my shortcomings than in His might and strength. It’s really no wonder I didn’t know how to get started when my vision was blurred from looking at myself and the world instead of keeping a steady, clear gaze on Him.

I wrestled with the idea of being willing to fail for the sake of the kingdom for longer than I wish I had. But once I FINALLY surrendered to God and told him I was all in and willing to fail for the sake of the kingdom was when I discovered the crazy paradox that set me free to embark boldly on my dreams with him:

When we are willing to fail for the sake of the kingdom, we're never going to fail.

Sure, in the eyes of the world, we may fail. Maybe our dreams won't look exactly how we wanted them to look and maybe the journey will be harder than we could have ever imagined, but when we step out with our eyes fixed on our Father, we won't fail. When we step out for the sake of the kingdom and we align our dreams with him and his kingdom, we won't fail because he wants his glory! He has his reputation to uphold. He cares far more about building up his kingdom than we ever could, and he's mighty within us. All we need to do is keep our eyes on him and get started.

Speaking of getting started, I’m reminded of something else I learned during that messy time last year: there really is no “clear cut beginning” in most things. All we can do is dive in and let Him guide us. We’re going to mess up in this crazy thing called life. It’s okay! Dare I say it’s even...good? The mess ups are good when they remind us of just how much we need him. 1 Cor. speaks exactly to this, you know. God uses what is weak in the world precisely so we don’t get too dependent on ourselves and can always remember who all this is really about.

So just start somewhere. If you’re still not sure where to start, sometimes simply having a willingness is all we need. If we wait until we feel totally able, we could end up waiting forever. But if we know, despite all of our limitations, He is able? That changes everything.

{He who has begun a good work in you will complete it until the day of Jesus Christ. Phil 1:6}